I am such an idiot

So, I am fully aware of my health issues and what stress can do. And even though I know this and have seen what it has done to me in the past, I still managed to get myself feeling like a mack truck mushed my bottom half of my body and the other half is fighting to stay alive. I could sit here and wish a lot things, but really I should know myself better and my limitations. And yes folks I have them. So because of that and what I have worked myself into, I am forced to stay close to the house and my bed. My goal (and yes my only goal for the weekend, since I really have to pick and choose what I can and can't do and save up my energy for Hannah and work) was to go to a bridal shower tomorrow. And at this point that is up in the air. I have no energy -- I got exhausted today from getting Hannah ready and set for school. No, I am not looking for pity, I am actually looking for a way I can forgive myself for doing this and messing up my weekend.
I only hope Kate can forgive me...

Hannah - remember her :)

she rec'd her report card today - all A's and one B. She is such a good doobie. She is EXTREMELY ecstatic cause she is going to go to work with me tomorrow. It is "Take you Child to WORK" and AARP has a huge day planned. My friend and I (well mostly Jen) -- set up a bunch of cute things on a desk for her. She will love it.

I am extremely worn out, and when I say extremely, I mean "can I please get a few days in the hospital to recuperate and to get better? " worn out.

My knees feels better and I think I am going to go to bed.

So I woke up yesterday morning

and I noticed something on my knee -- it was bruised but not like this now. The only this I did was plant a few flowers on Sunday. It hurts and I really was hoping I could talk to the doctor on monday about it cause my other knee is bruised as well, just not as bad -- but I can't...

I guess if it gets worse I can run up to urgent care. Oh well right, it's just a knee

Welcome Otter

Here is Jennifer's new dog- Otter

STUNNING

Her top finally goes down

it has been a while since I have put her top down, but today is the day! it will hit in the 70's and even though not a lot is going on, I will force myself to go out and about.

Hannah has a soccer clinic with somebody from Baltimore Blast today. She also got approved leave for Take your child to work day. I am glad I enclosed the agenda for the day when I asked permission. Whew, Anne Arundel county can be tough. So Hannah is coming to work with me next Thursday. Wow, those guys have no idea what they are in for :) well i guess they do, the do know me.

I finally got my shoes for a wedding I am in at the end of May. And my friend Jen went to pick up her Lab puppy from the same breeder that I got Diesel and Ripley from -- I can't wait to see the pictures and hope the name they picked out sticks.

I am still very bummed about this weeks happenings at work :(

I don't even know what to say and what to do

One of the best bosses I have ever had in my career resigned today. I have to say it has been a rather tough year at my job and this just was the straw that broke the camel's back. I know it must have been a hard decision to make for him and I am happy that he will get to spend more time with his son and wife and enjoy life. I just am very very sad we are losing him - for most of us he was the reason we stayed and believed in what we were doing. POOF, gone..
I am tired, tired of fighting the inevitable. I give.

Tank

So I got some really bad news today before I left work. My bestest, dearest and more then a sister friend Kellie called me and told me that Tank has a very aggressive form of cancer. The surgery he had last week found a tumor on his lung that turns out to be canine lung carcinoma. They are giving him 6 mos to a year. Very Sad :( She is going to take him to the same oncologist that Bailey and Onyx saw. I had to say that phone call trudged up a lot of memories for me.

One of our dearest friends just had their yellow lab, Cody (onyx's best friend) put to sleep last week. Hannah found his ashes this morning and completely lost it. Mike had to tell her that he now with Onyx, Bailey and Jasmin and that they are having fun. Very Sad.

We (Me and Mike) kept Tank for several weeks when Steve first got him for Kellie as a X-mas gift. He was sooo attached to Mike. When Mike was playing video games and sitting on the floor, Tank would jump in his lap and sleep there. If you got anywhere near Mike, he would attack. Funny - he was like 8 weeks old.

My prayers are there with them and my heart is breaking at the same time.

Windy

so we lost a tree today.. my only favorite one. It was a cherry tree. it missed my shed by inches. Now we have to figure out how to cut it into pieces and get ride of it.

It was also a sucky day -- what happened at VT is just plain horrible.

You win some, you lose some

so they lost their today- -so the record stands at 1-1-1. They also had pictures for soccer. Alyssa is over to play Wii all night.

I am tired... long day already. I am going to look for shoes for the wedding I am in at the end of may. Happy Happy Joy Joy.

Enjoy the pictures...

Happy Easter

great food and lots of relaxing. Hannah got a new Wii game. She has been hoggin the TV all day. Mike made a fab dinner! WOW. I took some new pictures of the boys.. and I am sure you can guess what the picture is of on the left :)

Bumpy start to the weekend

So I had some issues this week: I had this terrible pain shooting down my backside and it was making walking and made sitting difficult. Besides feeling like crap, I was beginning to worry that I was developing an infection from my injection. Mike notice a small pocket and we watched it closely and decided if it was still there the next day we were going to the hospital. Well thank god, it feels soooo much better today. I can actually walk almost pain free. We have decided that Mike accidentally hit the muscle. So disaster averted.

Hannah is getting excited about Easter. I have boiled the eggs so she can dye them later on. Mike went out and bought me a lawn mower. I love to cut grass!!!! I am also excited that the trees guys are coming on Wednesday to get rid of a HUGE evergreen next to my house and a LARGE shrub in my front yard that is taking over the electrical box (BGE has left me several notes about it). I will feel a little more safe when that tree is gone. And hopefully my decision to get the lawn treated gets me my beautiful lawn sometime this summer. The backyard can't be saved with three dogs.

Both Diesel and Ripley had a bumpy day today - both have thrown up. Ripley from something he ate and Diesel from working himself up.

For those Ripley lovers

I haven't posted pictures of the little man (that is such a joke) in a minute, so I thought I would give u bunch at once. He is doing well, at his almost 5mos check up, he weighed in at 42.6 lbs and had his last shot for a while. Next step -- balls are going bye-bye, chip going in and freaky leftover dewclaw being yanked. That is next month. His heart murmur is doing good, last check up they could not hear it. So enjoy the pictures !

And yes, he does look a lot like Diesel in a few of them and they are both HANDSOME as hell!!

Wii are family

ha... sometimes it is who you know and not what you know. So I could never get my hands on a Wii for Hannah. So after the Nintendo folks came in to talk to us, I simply asked and they delivered. Yes I did have to pay but I finally got my hands on it and Hannah is ecstatic. I am pretty happy myself. Job well done Mommy!

Great day to have the convertible. Man, it was nice!!!!