One more thing

so some folks came in last night to look at the house (yes that never ending saga) and then they came back again this AM. Low and behold, they submitted an offer tonight, my first one!! It's not bad, the only sad thing is they want to settle later then we wanted, so hopefully the other house will hold. We also got an email that a another offer can come on Tuesday from a new set of folks. I am thinking they need to do it sooner... I am ready to bolt and get into the house. I really hope they hold for us.

I laugh because what else can I do? At least if all this works out, I can actually focus this month on getting better and not worry about who is coming and when, AMEN.

I am off work for at least the next month to try and get better -- they added yet another med to regime and I am scared of what it will all mean and do. I have alot of other things going on in the health department, but not the engergy to go into it.

Wish us luck on the offers and hope the other house will hold... We sooo need the good news...

It's time

to close up shop and close down this blog. As I deal with some really heavy health issues and life in general, I need time to focus. I guess I also want some of my private life back, and yeah that is my fault for putting it out there but now I will change that.

Thanks to everyone stopped by.. maybe when things get a little less heavy I will start a new chapter. Happy Blogging!!

Fun!

So we went to the specialist yesterday, and after waiting for an hour and the doctor looking at her toe for a whopping 3 minutes, he confirmed she did indeed break her toe. So four weeks recovery and then another x-ray. To me, that was a huge waste of my time. She is doing ok, she says it only throbs every now and again.

Mike and I did a lot of running around yesterday, so our plans for our anniversary were put on the back burner. Busy week this week at work.

She did what?!

So we just got back from Night Time Peds and yes Hannah broke her toe. Apparently last night she slipped on a frisbee and we all thought she was being Ms. Drama Queen. Well tonight (because she was at alyssa's today) -- I asked her to come sit down so I could look at it. IT WAS SO SWOLLEN AND BRUISED. Mike did his vet thing and said we should take her up to have it x-rayed. Hannah wanted to go as well (so you know it had to hurt) and low and behold the x-ray showed she broke her toe. So now we have to take her to an orthopedist tomorrow, just our luck, it's our Anniversary tomorrow. So now I feel SOOO guilty for not taking her sooner and thinking she was over reacting....

Positive spin -- it could have been worse, she could have broken her foot...(yeah that doesn't work so well).

GODZILLA

I was very happy when I finally got home last night that my Godzilla collection (DVD) came in the mail. I love OLD godzilla movies. I used to watch them every Saturday morning (it was the only thing on). Hannah is also excited, yes I have turned my 8 year old into a godzilla fan!!
One of my favorites is Godzilla vs. Mothra. Yes people, I will watch all of them this weekend..

Hot Puppy

so Diesel is very hot.... but he finally found the cool spot right across from the window unit in Mike's part of the bed :)

I'm soooooo hot

well, not in that sense. When I came home this afternoon, I heard an odd noise so I went to go check it out. Found out it was my AC unit screaming bloody murder. Can't get it fixed until tomorrow.. and on top of that my computer has been invaded and needs to be re-built. Not such a good day in Gina's world. How can I spin a positive?

I wonder what David would say?
I know what John would say...

Once more, with feeling...

man, so today kinda blew. I went to the doc and had more tests done, more medications were added (yes I have actually lost count) and then I went to work. I am pissed at myself because I never ate today, well lie, I only got a drumstick icecream finally at 2 because there was nothing else and I could not walk anywhere because I was in that much pain. And that was after two pills to get me through the day. One of the hardest parts lately is not sleeping. I get maybe three hours a night of non interrupted sleep and then the pain kicks in and it's all over. So I will take something new tonight to try and get a restful night sleep. Mike ran to get me a sub, I am so hungry.

John, you still owe me one more.
Joesph, thanks for the "care" package today and
David, I really should have taken you up on that offer...

Rant

So I am a little irritated ... and this has been brewing. I am finally getting traffic (by this I mean, people coming to look at the house) but that's it. No nibbles and it is sooo disrupting my life now. I just want someone piss or get off the pot. I decided to take some time off and get some much needed rest and deal with some other issues and NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO -- I get phone calls "people wanna see the house." Then I have to run around like a mad women and get everything together and then I have to leave. It is not helping me at this point and I am just an irritated women.

Pretty Girl

Hannah has had a pretty easy week. And by that I mean, she did a lot of chilling and playing that DS. Yesterday she went to St. Micheals with her Grandparents and had a great time. Today she is going on a field trip with camp. I had to go up twice because she forgot her bathing suite. We got our pool passes, so I guess we are hitting the pool this weekend. I am not looking forward to putting on a suit, but for Hannah I will.
Diesel is home with me today, Zoe had to get her staples out of her leg. He has pulled out every single toy out of his toy basket. DORKWAD.

I picked up some movies from Blockbuster last night, looking forward to watching some good movies for once. Gosh, I really hated the "Hills Have Eyes."
Back to work :)

A whole year

already of blogging. I still can't believe it has been a year of me doing this. I am really glad I started doing this, it has helped me deal with so many things through out the year. This past year has bought me so many challenges and changes that should have drove me right off the deep end. The deaths of Bay and Onyx were just soo unexpected. I still look back in disbelief and then I feel that ache in my heart that let's me know " yes it is real." I just have to hold on to the wonderful memories I have.

Hannah has changed soo much over this past year. Hannah has always been Ms. Independant, but has really shown me that she can handle so many things on her own. She constantly amazes Mike and myself with her quick comebacks and her intelligance that you do forget that she is just 8 years old. She still enjoys school, reading, playing her DS, going to the beach with Aunt Denise, her Thursday's out with Grandma and Grandpa and still misses Bailey.

This year has brought me a new puppy - Diesel. I soo needed him and he came at the right time. His expressions make me smile on a daily basis. He keeps me busy with his moronic behavior and eases the ache that I have in my heart. As much as he drives Zoe crazy, she needs him, too. He is a nice compliment to the house of disorder. I would really like to get another once after we move and he settles down more.

I would say something about work, but why? Even it is a huge part of my life only because I spend more time here then anywhere else, I have learned this year, because of my illness, that it's not the end all or be all. I can only give so much.

And finally, my life this past year with RA and now Lupus. Welp, that has been a load this past year. I am still learning what I can and can't do. I am still accepting my diagnosis and what it means in the long run. I am getting used to all the medications and the side effects. I am still learning not to be mad at the tick 5 years ago that lead me to where I am today. I will always struggle with what is best for me. I will always be grateful to Mike and Hannah for always being there and understanding.. it helps more then they will ever know. I appreciate my friends for understanding that I don't like talking about it but forcing me to deal with it and letting me know that they are there to help me get through this journey.

And finally, the house. Well, I still haven't sold my T/H and only have 20+ days for my other house and then we move on. But I am ok with that, because if it was meant to be, it will happen.

The boy and his toys

Diesel is going through his toy basket and having fun. The frog drives him crazy cause he can't get the frog to stop croaking... hee hee hee.

I am tired today, yesterday wore all of us out. And lucky me, I get to work tomorrow. Fun