when did it all go wrong

that question keeps popping in my head lately. the better question is: how can i fix it all? i don't have that answer just yet. i know things are pretty crappy in my world in terms of finding a job. things are ok with my health. it is NOT easy juggling lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, Renaud's syndrome and vasculitis all at the same time, but i am managing to keep it in check.

now i really need to pick myself up, dust myself off and get things on track. still, what are my options?

more pondering is in store for me. i am really,really tired tonight. i just got my shot, ate a little dinner and cleaned up. the question is now: should i turn in for the evening so i can be super productive tomorrow?