and I go to hopkins. I am beginning to think I am putting to much hope on this visit. the pain has not subsided and I am soooo tired. my dogs have been snuggling in bed with me and it makes me sad to know they know I am not doing well. I am glad a good friend is taking me tomorrow so I don't have to be alone. I am so glad she has called me and talked with me. I have not eaten much in the last couple of days because i just can't bring myself to eat -- my appetite is shot. I did finally reach out to the lupus foundation to find some support and possibly an opportunity to talk with someone who understands what I am going through.
frustrations are still there, but the crying has diminished(for now).